I Think I Need a Break From Everything!

I am so frustrated so this post is mostly a therapeutic rant and there may be TMI so beware if you continue. So, I recently found out that my 21 day progesterone was great, it was 30. My doctor called today and said actually the medication probably worked too well getting me to ovulate and at that high of a number (they just want you over 10) they were actually worried I was hyper stimulated (which can cause multiples, ovarian cysts, and etc...) so she said IF I got my period she would reorder another cycle  and at a little bit less of a dose. I was really hopeful that because of the high number it meant that maybe this month we actually may have gotten pregnant....but today, I started spotting which means AF is probably imenent. That makes me sooo mad! I know I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up with this being our FIRST medicated cycle but still!! I got pregnant SO easy with the boys that is time I am so absolutely frustrated. Not to mention it EVERYONE around me is pregnant or finding out they are pregnant or just had a baby. It literally makes me sick to look at Facebook, blogs, or even watch TV. I know that sounds harsh but it is so hard to watch people who barely try to get pregnant, or who aren't married, and anyone in general get pregnant so easy. I even had this grand plan of announcing my pregnancy (because you know I swore I would great pregnant right away lol) to Jeremy and my dad on Fathers Day coming up. Well, now thats out the window! I know this is just the emotional let down right now, and despite my inward frustration with our situation I am still happy for everyone around me but gosh....this sucks. So, as of right now, I will restart my meds and go for cycle number 2 on Sunday. Here we go.