Cycle 1

Today starts Day 1 of my Femara cycle (technically day 3 according to my doc) but today is the first day I took the medication to help with my ovulation. I hear the side effects aren't too bad and it is generally more tolerated than Clomid, so here goes nothing! I am supposed to take two pills daily for three more days after today and then later this month comes more labs to check on the progress of everything.

I am nervous to begin fertility medication because of so many things. First I am nervous that it may not work, and then what? I am not sure that if oral or injectable meds(the next step) doesn't work that I am willing to put my family thru IUI or IVF when we do have two perfect little boys already. Second thing I am nervous about is what if it works....and works really well! That sounds silly but I think I have gotten so used to not getting pregnant each month that when it does happen I think it will really not even seem real and then all of the reality of three children will set it in (which is ultimately what we do want). I know that sounds crazy but its true, once your pregnant no going back, lol. Also, what if it works too well and there is more than one babe in there when it happens?! Oh my! I know that if that is what happens that is what is ultimately meant to be and the chances aren't really huge (doc said about 5-15% have twins and higher order multiples are really under heard of on this med alone).

I have come to a  realization that what happens will happen and I just have to trust that things always work out for the best in the end. Jeremy has been so sweet this past year and I know it bothers him to see me stress about it so much especially knowing that he would like more children as well. But, ultimately he leaves how far we will go to get to that up to me. So heres, to cycle 1, and lets see what happens and how crazy this med makes me, haha!!! Fingers crossed!!