Change, Its What I Do

So, a few posts back I was so excited over my new venture as being the occupational health nurse for the John Deere Foundry. Well, that has unexpectandly ended. I went and trained for several days in the foundry and each day my asthma got worse and worse. It got so bad I thought I was going to have a full blown attack and my lungs just burned. When I mentioned it to my boss she called HR and next thing I knew I was turning in my badge because it was unsafe for me to be there anymore. For those that have never been in the the foundry it is really really dirty. The employees come in filthy and the health office is located right in the middle of the foundry. I really never thought I would have a problem since my asthma has been pretty controlled for quite awhile now. Well, I was lucky enough that Allen (who John Deere contracts thru) offered me another weekend job on the medical floor at the hospital. I also had the opportunity to possibly go back to my old job during the week at Mercy. But, when I really broke it down with Jeremy, if I work during the week and the boys go back to daycare we would be paying over a$1,000 for daycare on top of the $900 a month I already pay on student loans. By staying on weekends I save the amount I pay on daycare and use that savings for my student loan payments and the rest of my check for our montly bills (like we have been doing). I am so nervous about working on an inpatient unit again because I have been in an outpatient setting for so long and it wasn't my top choice for places. However, I do know it will be great experience as I finish up my nurse practitioner program over the next several semesters. Its just so hard because I really liked the job at John Deere and to have it gone so fast and placed into another position I never even thought of literally in a matter of twelve hours is so crazy. I have to keep telling myself I will always do whats best for my family and that this is a learning experience. But, its hard to not to be so sad about everything. I guess things do happen for a reason, I just can't wait to see what the reason for all this was! :)